so the mistress begins her yearly descent into insanity...the first of the year always seems to inspire a special kind of reflection...reflection in the mirror tells tall tales.

I despise memphis. I despise its outlaw christianity and its defacto segregation.

I have a crush on a cook a work. if i act on it, not only would it end my relationship-which more and more is seeming like no big loss-but my job as well. Not only would I be fraternizing with the help-he is black-which makes it a double whammy here in good ol memphrica.

but I like him.in a sweet way.

the other night we had drinks and walked my dog at 4am...he comes from a family that runs just about every kitchen in memphis-they also run drugs thru every kitchen in memphis. they are smart business people-but not always on the right side of things.

I don't know.

this time last year I bought a ticket and ran away.

this year,hmmm.